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February 3, 2015
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This past year has been fabulous. It's been such a year of amazing growth. The past few years I have given myself a little theme I felt I needed to live by. It started with my Embrace Simplicity theme. Then last year was Believe. Which last year I still hung to my Embracing Simplicity. My year ended with a true feeling of contentment. The last couple of months I have just really, finally in my life felt content. I have had true peace and joy. I had to lay a few things in God's hands and really trust Him. After our little foster kiddos left us back in May, I felt a peace in that storm, but I had a lot of underlying worry that would really seem to manifest in my dreams. I finally got to a point where I couldn't bear to hear our sweet 3 year old calling for me and asking for me in my dreams, which became nightmares; wondering why he couldn't come home with us. In these dreams I would see him in various places, sometimes I'd just want to hug him so tight, but mostly I just wanted to hide so that he wouldn't see me, but I needed to watch him from afar and just know that he was okay. So I would wake up and just yearn for those kids. I'd pray for all of them, yet he, being the oldest and truly the least resilient of the 3, I prayed especially for him. That he would have peace, that he would be happy, that he wouldn't wonder why he had to go or feel rejected from us, but feel loved and happy and thrive back at home with their family and relatives, who I know, love them even more than I could (even though that is hard to imagine because I really really really love them as my own flesh & blood).
I finally got to a point that I just said "Okay God, I seriously cannot handle these nightmares. I just need peace, day and night, peace in this entire situation. If the kids aren't okay and there is a reason for these dreams or you are trying to tell me something I get it and I will deal with it and continue yearning and praying according to these dreams. BUT if they are okay...I need these dreams to end. I can't keep seeing them and hearing M calling out to me, asking why he can't come home. It's devastating and I just need to know that the kids are okay."
I tell you, I promise you, I haven't had a nightmare since. And I KNOW, that I know that I know, that the kids are okay. God has given me such a peace I cannot explain it. He answered that prayer and I truly feel in my heart of hearts the kids are doing well and everything is fine. The yearning is still there sometimes of course. Not a moment goes by that we don't think of them. But I have such a calming assurance that God's got this and those babies are good.
This summer has been a wonderful time of bonding with our girls. This is the first school year I am home with no little kids. I am loving this season of life we are in. Loving life, loving my furniture restoration, loving my little "office" in the basement where I get to work and paint ad be artsy and creative. I still do hair on the side. I am more hippy, weird, natural, organic, homemade, relaxed, etc. than ever. I have learned a lot about myself this past year and I am just content. No need to compare myself to others. I don't wish for this or that. My life is just good.
Contentment is something I have prayed for, for YEARS. And I am finally there. I don't know when it clicked, or how it clicked or what I did or God did. But it's there. And I'm riding the waves and enjoying where they take me. The ups and downs, the highs and lows. I just trust God. Point Blank. He's real, he's in control and He's got this. No matter what. God is still God and He's always gonna be. Why worry when I don't have to.
I have also learned I am a total introvert. That explains so much!!! Explains why sometimes I just want to be alone in the midst of a crowd at times. Which is why my little office and job in the basement is perfect for me. My own space to be with my thoughts, my music, and whatever I have internalized that week :)
This year I also wrote this very bold blog post that took a lot of courage and confidence I didn't have, but I wrote it anyways and am still glad because I received a lot of messages, emails, even phone calls from others who have struggled with the same or similar things.
I feel like I have a lot to say or that I want to say, but I will wrap it up for now. Thanks for reading :) I would love to know what kind of things you've learned about yourself this past year or anything God has shown you or revelations or anything! Please share. Ironically I would rather hear about others than talk about myself.
Oh, and this next year's theme : PRAYER
September 29, 2014
These are from the Back In The Day Bakery Cookbook.
September 17, 2014
|This is my absolute favorite laundry detergent. And trust me, I have tried a ton! This is awesome!|
|Having sensitive skin I find deodorant a real tough one for me. This causes no issues for me. It's all natural and works too! I may try making my own.|
|I am a huge fan of this shampoo!|
|This has the best lingering scent! And makes your drawer, cupboard or wherever you store the box smell fabulous too.|
September 10, 2014
Once in a while I like to watch these movies with a marriage reminder or little lesson to keep me grounded. I love my husband dearly and we have a good relationship & thing going here after our little 14 years together. But I like these movies nonetheless because they just strengthen that spark as I place myself in another's shoes. This is an exerpt from the end of one of those movies that I think we can all relate to, if we put ourselves in place of those characters. This is from "The Story of Us" with Bruce Willis and Michelle Pfeiffer .
It's fun to remind ourselves of how we first met. Why we fell in love and how marriage truly is a dance we perfect over time not over night.
I love a good ending too! And this movie has one.
Ben and Katie are on the brink of divorce. They separate for a summer while their kids are away at camp. They agree to let the kids know they are divorcing when they pick them up.
Katie: (in the camp parking lot after loading their kids, Josh & Erin, in the car) I want to go to Chow Funs.
Ben: I thought we agreed we couldn't really talk at Chow Funs.
Katie: I know.
Ben: Are you saying Chow Funs because you can't face telling the kids? Because if that's why you're saying Chow Funs, don't say Chow Funs.
Katie: That's not why I'm saying Chow Funs. I'm saying Chow Funs because we're an us. There's a history here, and histories don't happen overnight. In Mesopotamia of Ancient Troy, there are cities built on top of other cities. But I don't want another city, I like this city. I know what kind of mood you're in when you wake up by which eyebrow is higher, and you know I'm a little quiet in the morning and compensate accordingly, that's a dance you perfect over time. And it's hard, it's much harder than I thought it would be. But there's more good than bad and you don't just give up! And it's not for the sake of the children. But God, they're great kids, aren't they? And we made them, I mean think about that! It's like there were no people there, and then there were people and they grew, and I won't be able to say to some stranger Josh has your hands or remember how Erin threw up at the Lincoln Memorial and I'll try to relax. Let's face it, anybody is going to have traits that get on your nerves, I mean why shouldn't it be your annoying traits, and I know I'm no day at the beach, But I do have a good sense of direction so I can at least find the beach, which isn't a weakness of yours, it's just a strength of mine. And gosh, you're a good friend and good friends are hard to find. Charlotte said that in 'Charlotte's Web' and I love how you read that to Erin and you take on the voice of Wilbur the Pig with such dedication even when your bone tired. That speaks volumes about character! And ultimately, isn't that what it comes down to? What a person is made of? That girl in the pin helmet is still here 'bee boo bee boo' I didn't even know she existed until you and I'm afraid if you leave, I may never see her again, even though I said at times you beat her out of me, isn't that the paradox? Haven't we hit the essential paradox? Give and take, push and pull, the yen the yang. The best of times, the worst of times! I think Dickens said it best, 'He could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean'. But that doesn't really apply here, does it? What I'm trying to say is, I'm saying Chow Funs. Because I love you.
Ben: I love you too. (And they hug)
Ben: Did you hear that, kids? (Running back to the car) Mom wants to go to Chow Funs!