The title speaks for itself.
This is me.
The way I have been feeling.
It's really a whole bunch of things. That moment when everyone drives you insane. Every post you read makes you want to swear. The smallest situation that can set you off.
I am on edge. I hate being on edge. The following will show you just how so on edge I am...
People and their pompous, arrogant ways.
A lady at the gym I may just sock one to the next time I smile at her and she just looks at me with her ugly scowl. Yea, that's right lady, I will wipe that freaken scowl right off your pointy face. (I JUST HAVE TO SHARE THIS LITTLE UPDATE 5-1-12 The lady at the gym had a very cute dress on today...So I made a point to tell her "I really like your dress". She said thanks. I said "super cute". She said thanks again. And now I am over it because she accepted my TRUE compliment which erased my on edge-ness with her) :)
Bickering, arguing, bickering, arguing...sets me off.
Some people's happiness and perfect little lives put me on edge.
People who ask too many questions set me off.
Sometimes I don't want to answer questions. Sometimes I don't want to talk about myself. Can't I just listen to you?
People who have used us, crushed us and thrown us to the wayside and then carried on with their little life sets me off.
All the fitness crap I have become so over-obsessed reading. Eat this, don't eat this, do this, do that...Try it all, yet weigh the same. That sets me off. :)
The person who would comment on this that I need to count my blessings, puts me on edge. My blessings are counted. I am still on edge.
The mom with kids who barely has to work at her hot body sets me off.
Politics and stupidity sets me off.
Messes, clutter, my dog shedding, light when I am trying to sleep makes me on edge.
People loving and adoring a person that I know is a crooked fool puts me on edge.
When I am on to someone, but no one else is...or everyone else thinks that person is a saint, puts me on edge.
The unknown keeps me on edge.
People who play unnecessary, immature games set me off.
Not being listened to.
People who talk about stuff like they know what they are talking about but haven't a clue and then get extra opinionated keep me on edge.
Advice when I didn't ask for it puts me on edge.
'Know it all's' put me on edge.
I am overwhelmed with who knows what...and on edge. I don't like feeling this way.
What am I doing to try and help myself and change my perspective?
1. Limit what I read.
In regards to the fitness stuff and news. All the don't do's and the must do's.
2. Recognize there are *certain days I must limit my time perusing facebook because that's when I read posts that annoy me the most as it pertains to certain people and places.
I am also limiting what comes to my phone because some people and their tweets put me on edge.
I have been quite delete & block happy lately :) It's SO liberating.
3. The doctor has ordered MORE SLEEP
I am trying very, very hard. Ideally 8 hours would be fabulous, but even 7 is better than the on average 5 hrs of sleep I currently get. Plus lack of sleep makes me fat.
4. Not being afraid of calling people out on their crap. Being a little more gutsy & confident.
5. Read my bible & pray more...I have admittedly been slacking at this in the midst of the busyness of life
6. Admitting my struggle & how I am feeling is humiliating & makes me vulnerable which in turn keeps me humble.
So this post is mostly for me. When I air my stuff I feel better.
But it's also for anyone else who feels or has felt so on edge that everyone and everything drives you bonkers. Or when life just seems to keep throwing lemon after lemon at you and you just cannot bring yourself to make the lemonade or find the silver lining in any of it.